I’m sitting here in the break room and I’m having a slight panic attack. Why? The whole way to work this was happening. My legs are shaking and I feel like crying. This past Fri i wanted to cry the whole 8 hours I was here. We are locked in and we can’t go anywhere. Usually when I feel like this I go outside and breath some freah air. I just sit and let the sun, wind or whatever on my skin. I have my music and lets hope that it makes it go away. Cause I’m locked in till 7:30 AM.
Posted by MunsterNCookie on November 10, 2013
Lately, I’ve been having trouble sleeping. I have been working a lot more and then coming home and doing some cleaning. But I just can’t figure out why I feel tired. I have been like this my whole life, but it’s just getting to me now. All I want to do it lay in bed and chill out or sleep. Sleep seems awesome to me. I’m sure I get enough sleep all together. I have been somewhat depressed. I would like to move out of state. Since ive been working I have been making more money. Every pay check has gone to bills. I hate this! Hopefully everything will change, because there are somethings that have changed for the better. Maybe when income tax comes and with the money i hope to save I can finaly move.
Posted by MunsterNCookie on October 15, 2013
I sit and wonder where I am.
Where did I go?
I closed my eyes and dreamt of stars and rainbow of colours.
The vibrant reds,blues, and yellows seem so beautiful.
How did i not see it before?
I can hear voices but no faces appear.
Trees are dancing in the light pink breeze, the grass is so green.
Who’s yelling my name, its peaceful here Idon’t want to leave.
Then heavy-ness becomes my body.
I have flashes of Him, the red is dripping artfuly from his hand.
Then the bright white is everywhere, the voices are louder and more clear.
What do they want with me?
I open my eyes and see the tubes coming out, the IV in my arm.
I thought he cared, I thought he loved me, why put me here?
Posted by MunsterNCookie on October 2, 2013
So i made this recipe. Find it on allrecipes.com
2Tbsp and 2 tsp canola oil, divide
1-1/4 (14oz) package firm tofu,cubed
1-1/4 clove garlic, minced
1-1/4 green bell pepper,chopped
1-1/4 (15oz) can garbanzo beans,drained
1-1/4 tomatoe,chopped (i used a can of diced tomatoes)
2 Tbsp & 2 tsp garam masala
Salt and pepper
2-2/3 C water
Posted by MunsterNCookie on September 13, 2013
- have money to finish my schooling
- be loved and cared for
- be able to sit down and draw what I’m feeling
-not have to worry/stress
- move before 2014
- be myself
- be happy
- have a back rub
- have the knots in my shoulders gone
- ride my bike around town without feeling like my heart is gonna jump out
- be healthy
- do my stress test and not have them stop because I can’t do it anymore
- be rid of the anxiety
- come home/wake up and the dishes are done, laundry hung/folded, bedroom cleaned.
Posted by MunsterNCookie on July 25, 2013
I have been away for awhile. Lets start with the meds. I’ve been taking them, but cut it in half. They made me way to tired. I could barely keep my eyes open. My weight has slowly gone up. I have an appetite again. Yeah i am staying positive and hooping it all gets better.
I am starting to crochet again. Finally motivated to make some creations. I’ve also started to draw more. Trying new medias. Is that the right term/word? By the end of the month I want to have at least 5 new items up for sale in tbe Etsy shop.
I have been cooking more as well. Trying new recipes out. I’m loving it!! Baking cookies non stop it seems. Getting into baking healthy cookies.
So… i went to high school, then I did homeschool. I never finished homeschool. I recently contacted them and said I want to finish. I need 6 1/2 credits left to get my diploma. Making it a goal to finish it by the end of the year. :):)
– 5 New items up in the shop
– Catch up on my penpal letters
– start my homeschooling
– start working.out everyday again
– Go out on the town with a friend
– Make a lunch pkan for August
– Get as many hours of work as I can
– Take my medicine and multi vitamins
I would love to know what everyone has been getting done in July. How are your goals? If you’re taking meds, how is it going? Comment below about it or comment with a link to your blog post about these questions.
UNTIL NEXT TIME.
Posted by MunsterNCookie on July 22, 2013
Help her reach her new goal of 5,000. She is amazing.
Posted by MunsterNCookie on July 16, 2013
I have been taking my medicine and the only draw back would be I’m tired. I have been working and being more active so that could be it as well. I have to wait and see. :/ Been doing great at work!
I even met a guy and his kids from Seattle. The guy said they are down visiting his wife’s family. He gave me some information and his email. I gave him my email and phone, he said he’ll send some more info and if he comes across any places for rent or hire. I’m so excited. Now the big step will be to get all the money we need. Still struggling in that department. Hopefully I can sell some stuff and get more hours at work, maybe a new job.
The future is looking better, brighter. Tomorrow I want to get stuff done. I need to crochet new things. Just renewed a lot of items in the Etsy shop.
Check it out, let me know what you think. Like or want anything? We accept PayPal
Thanks for reading. Until next time.
Posted by MunsterNCookie on July 15, 2013
Last night i took my pill at bedtime. I got tired, which is good. I usually don’t sleep till about 2-4. I’ll lay there and close my eyes pretending to sleep. I do fall asleep sometimes before 12. So anyways, today i woke up and there was some anxiety. But i did clothes and made something to eat for Munster and I and coffee for him. I got ready for work. Work was okay. Very busy now cause of the back to school sale and store wide clearance. But so far so good. My doctor said it’ll take up to a week. Hopefully it kicks in way sooner.
Oh this morning i woke up and first thing i did was donate to Goldenjellybeans kickstarter.
Which you should too!
Still trying to crochet stuff, but i haven’t the motivation to.
Thanks for reading. Ill keep you posted.
Posted by MunsterNCookie on July 13, 2013
Yesterday I had a pretty good day. I ate breakfast and chilled out. I was smiling and happy. Even went to work and I did my hair and makeup :)
Last night before bed sucked but I made it through. This morning I woke up with anxiety and Ihad a doc appointment at 10:15. Well my morning wasn’t to good. I ended up feeling like shit. I got to my appointment at 10:47, very late. I talked to my doctor and she prescribed a pill. Hopefully it will work and will help me gain weight since i lost 6 pounds from all of this.
I received an email from an apartment up in Tacoma,Wa. I called them took down info and numbers. Now i need to figure how to get to those numbers. Seattle was the finale destination, but Tacoma has a Toys R Us/Babies R Us. Its only 15 mins out of Seattle so we can still go. The apartment looked awesome. I only got to see it through pics but still looked nice.
If anyone want to buy any of my crochet items or want it but in another colour please let me know. I have a PayPal so we can do payment through there.
PAYPAL - MunsterNCookie@live.com
ETSY – MunsterNCookie.etsy.com
Thank you for reading. Until next time.
Posted by MunsterNCookie on July 12, 2013