Having Trouble Sleeping

  Lately, I’ve been having trouble sleeping. I have been working a lot more and then coming home and doing some cleaning. But I just can’t figure out why I feel tired. I have been like this my whole life, but it’s just getting to me now. All I want to do it lay in bed and chill out or sleep. Sleep seems awesome to me. I’m sure I get enough sleep all together. I have been somewhat depressed.  I would like to move out of state. Since ive been working I have been making more money. Every pay check has gone to bills. I hate this! Hopefully everything will change, because there are somethings that have changed for the better. Maybe when income tax comes and with the money i hope to save I can finaly move. 🙂

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He loves me, He loves me not

I sit and wonder where I am.
Where did I go?
I closed my eyes and dreamt of stars and rainbow of colours.
The vibrant reds,blues, and yellows seem so beautiful.
How did i not see it before?
I can hear voices but no faces appear.
Trees are dancing in the light pink breeze, the grass is so green.
Who’s yelling my name, its peaceful here Idon’t want to leave.
Then heavy-ness becomes my body.
I have flashes of Him, the red is dripping artfuly from his hand.
Then the bright white is everywhere, the voices are louder and more clear.
What do they want with me?
I open my eyes and see the tubes coming out, the IV in my arm.
I thought he cared, I thought he loved me, why put me here?