Crocheting again.

So I’ve been crocheting again.  My good friend had trouble sleeping so I came across Twinkie Chan’s website.  I saw her instagram aswell. Its anazing and she’s adorable. So I nade the sleep mask but in pink and I’m not done.  I want to make the ‘oops my eye fell out’ mask but I dunno how to make eyes.  I’m crocheting them and undoing.  Once I get them how I want it should be done.  🙂

Breakfast at Tiffanys Sleep Mask

Ill post a pic in an update of this post once I have time.  Today I have two kids.  My Munster and a friends

Happy Sunday everyone 🙂 have an amazingly awesome day. 

P. S. I’m also crocheting a bunny for Munster for Easter. 

Crocheting Motivation

I have found some motivation to crochet and try and sell my creations again. I have discovered that my hand hurts while I crochet and my fingers seems stiff. Gonna have to check into that. Crocheted some more soap bags and a mushroom. Nubby is my favorite so far. He has a nub for an arm and only one eye.

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NUTWOOD DRUID HOROSCOPE

Nutwood’s Druid horoscope

The Nutwood Tree is very adaptable. Its fruit can be cracked open and the seeds can be eaten. When the bark is burnt it creates a fine, black soot that can be mixed with oil and combed through the hair to darken it. And the wood of this tree burns exceptionally well as firewood. Likewise, the very interesting Nutwood Tree person has a nature that is quite contradictory.

On the one hand, this sign is honest, loyal, and very friendly, but can instantly turn into a self-centered egoist when they feel that someone is trying to infringe upon their rights. On top of that, Nutwoods tend to have all kinds of unusual whims that they may not even try to hide. At times they have extreme and unpredictable mood swings and can become instantly aggressive.

Nutwood Tree people can be quite unpredictable. One minute they are all lovey-dovey, and the next moment they can be cold and completely indifferent. This sign knows what buttons to push to manipulate the feelings of others.

Nutwoods truly enjoy being taken care of. They desperately need to be admired and even worshipped. When they don’t get enough attention, Nutwoods may get frustrated and take it out on their loved ones. Also, they sometimes have a very jealous nature. They perceive each and every person as a potential competitor. All these traits make Nutwoods difficult and at times, unpleasant. Nutwoods are often their own worst enemies; they tend to blow everything out of proportion and complicate their own lives. And, because their personality is unpleasant at times, they may not have a confidant to share their worries with.

The love life of the Nutwood person is also far from being smooth. Nutwoods like to dominate their partner, alternating meanness with endearment. In order to find happiness in love, Nutwoods need to find somebody who will enjoy some level of suffering and be somewhat of a masochist.

Nutwoods are great strategists. While reasoning, they take into consideration the smallest details that other people may neglect. They can act quickly, but often they need time to think everything through.

Even the modest Nutwoods want their lives to be rich and eventful. They are not afraid to take risks. Their inability to compromise makes them hard to deal with for some people, but Nutwoods don’t care about that. They rely only on themselves, which can offend and alienate their loved ones, eventually driving them away. Those who appreciate their independent nature, however, will love them for what they are.

Copyright © Daily Horoscope.

NOT ALL IS TRUE, BUT INTERESTING.

He loves me, He loves me not

I sit and wonder where I am.
Where did I go?
I closed my eyes and dreamt of stars and rainbow of colours.
The vibrant reds,blues, and yellows seem so beautiful.
How did i not see it before?
I can hear voices but no faces appear.
Trees are dancing in the light pink breeze, the grass is so green.
Who’s yelling my name, its peaceful here Idon’t want to leave.
Then heavy-ness becomes my body.
I have flashes of Him, the red is dripping artfuly from his hand.
Then the bright white is everywhere, the voices are louder and more clear.
What do they want with me?
I open my eyes and see the tubes coming out, the IV in my arm.
I thought he cared, I thought he loved me, why put me here?

Tofu Masala

So i made this recipe. Find it on allrecipes.com

Serves 4

2Tbsp and 2 tsp canola oil, divide

1-1/4 (14oz) package firm tofu,cubed

1-1/4 Onion,chopped

1-1/4 clove garlic, minced

1-1/4 green bell pepper,chopped

1-1/4 (15oz) can garbanzo beans,drained

1-1/4 tomatoe,chopped (i used a can of diced tomatoes)

2 Tbsp & 2 tsp garam masala

Salt and pepper

2-2/3 C water

Heat the 1 tbsp of oil in a a large skillet over med-high heat. Add the cubed tofu and cook until lightly brown on all sides. About 10mins
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Remove from skillet and set aside. Reduce heat and pour remaining oil. Stir in the onions, peppers and garlic. Cook until soften, about 5 mins.
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Return tofu to the skillet along with the beans and tomatoe. Season with the garam masala, salt, and pepper, pour in the water.
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Bring to a simmer and cook 10-15 mins until thickened to your desire consistency. Remove from stove and allow to rest for 5 mins before serving. I added some lemon to each plate. It was yummy.
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I WANT TO

– have money to finish my schooling

– be loved and cared for

– be able to sit down and draw what I’m feeling

-not have to worry/stress

– move before 2014

– be myself

– be happy

– have a back rub

– have the knots in my shoulders gone

– ride my bike around town without feeling like my heart is gonna jump out

– be healthy

– do my stress test and not have them stop because I can’t do it anymore

– be rid of the anxiety

– come home/wake up and the dishes are done, laundry hung/folded, bedroom cleaned.

Getting Better & July List

      I have been away for awhile. Lets start with the meds. I’ve been taking them, but cut it in half. They made me way to tired. I could barely keep my eyes open. My weight has slowly gone up. I have an appetite again. Yeah 🙂 i am staying positive and hooping it all gets better.

         I am starting to crochet again. Finally motivated to make some creations. I’ve also started to draw more. Trying new medias. Is that the right term/word? By the end of the month I want to have at least 5 new items up for sale in tbe Etsy shop.

        I have been cooking more as well. Trying new recipes out. I’m loving it!! Baking cookies non stop it seems. Getting into baking healthy cookies. 🙂

        So… i went to high school, then I did homeschool. I never finished homeschool. I recently contacted them and said I want to finish. I need 6 1/2 credits left to get my diploma. Making it a goal to finish it by the end of the year. :):)

JULY GOALS

— 5 New items up in the shop
— Catch up on my penpal letters
— start my homeschooling
— start working.out everyday again

— Go out on the town with a friend
— Make a lunch pkan for August
— Get as many hours of work as I can
— Take my medicine and multi vitamins

I would love to know what everyone has been getting done in July. How are your goals? If you’re taking meds, how is it going? Comment below about it or comment with a link to your blog post about these questions.

UNTIL NEXT TIME.
         

So Far So Good

      I have been taking my medicine and the only draw back would be I’m tired. I have been working and being more active so that could be it as well. I have to wait and see. :/ Been doing great at work! 🙂

      I even met a guy and his kids from Seattle. The guy said they are down visiting his wife’s family. He gave me some information and his email. I gave him my email and phone, he said he’ll send some more info and if he comes across any places for rent or hire. 🙂 I’m so excited. Now the big step will be to get all the money we need. Still struggling in that department. 😦 Hopefully I can sell some stuff and get more hours at work, maybe a new job.

        The future is looking better, brighter. Tomorrow I want to get stuff done. I need to crochet new things. Just renewed a lot of items in the Etsy shop.

Check it out, let me know what you think. Like or want anything? We accept PayPal
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Thanks for reading. Until next time. 🙂

Yesterday and Today

   Yesterday I had a pretty good day. I ate breakfast and chilled out. I was smiling and happy. Even went to work and I did my hair and makeup 🙂 

  Last night before bed sucked but I made it through. This morning I woke up with anxiety and Ihad a doc appointment at 10:15. Well my morning wasn’t to good. I ended up feeling like shit. I got to my appointment at 10:47, very late. I talked to my doctor and she prescribed a pill. Hopefully it will work and will help me gain weight since i lost 6 pounds from all of this. 😦

    I received an email from an apartment up in Tacoma,Wa. I called them took down info and numbers. Now i need to figure how to get to those numbers. Seattle was the finale destination, but Tacoma has a Toys R Us/Babies R Us. Its only 15 mins out of Seattle so we can still go. The apartment looked awesome. I only got to see it through pics but still looked nice.

If anyone want to buy any of my crochet items or want it but in another colour please let me know. I have a PayPal so we can do payment through there.

PAYPAL – MunsterNCookie@live.com

ETSY – MunsterNCookie.etsy.com

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Thank you for reading. Until next time. 🙂

I feel it Starting Again

So, yesterday was an awful day. I couldn’t get out of bed and had no appetite. Was struggling with myself all day. This morning I wake up and I’m filled with anxiety. I’ve worked so hard to overcome goraphobia and social anxiety. But I feel it starting again. My head is filled with all those thoughts and my body is shaking. I want to take Munster to the library to see a magic show, but i don’t know if I can make it.

I don’t have an appetite again today. I feel sick and i want to throw up since this morning. I don’t want to be like this. I want to be normal. Well as normal as I ever was 🙂 hehe. I will try and take Munster to the library and hopefully i can stay 1+ hours so he can see the show and check out some books.

I remember going to the doctor and just being told more pills more pills! They made me sick, drunk like and slipping in and out of consciousness. Therapist did nothing for me my whole life.

I just want to be BETTER.
I just want to be NORMAL.
I want to HAPPY.
I want to feel SANE.
I want to FREE.
Most of all I want to be MYSELF.

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How i feel